Maybe I do this to myself. Maybe I’m the one who isn’t right.
Wah I just want everything to just happen and I don’t want to experience certain situations but I know I have to. This is a whole big part of growing up. It just sucks. I’m scared. I guess I’m really scared. Everything is always changing and I’m always so afraid that I’m throwing away personal relationships because it isn’t that I want to, but because I’m too exhausted for them. And that sucks. Because that’s not at all what I want to be doing. I love my friends. So much. I never want you guys to leave my life. I’d rather just kick back, grab a beer and watch a movie but I can’t even do that some nights. Growing up bites. I need to do this day by day but it just keeps getting harder. The little shadow that is lodged in my heart feels like it’s growing larger and deepening every day. It just hurts. Wah. Fight through it. That’s what I have to do. I hope there is something at the end of this tunnel. I just hope I’m not working for nothing.
"I don’t deal in hipster terms like ‘bromance’. It’s a friendship."